i think i will become a hermit

i cannot trust or rely on anybody but myself. then there are people that just being around them bums me out. they are dissatisfied with their lives and they seem to bring you down with them. So you go to the people you normally seek solace in every night, and they tell you to fuck off, also "you are doing ecstasy. is it wrong to be concerned with your wellbeing?" Its not that i tell them not to, its that they seem to think that my feelings are important. Sometimes i wish the people i really gave a shit about would give it back.